Feeling My Way

Finding Motherhood Without Losing Myself


How do you integrate motherhood into the rest of your identity?


Author Amanda Hirsch was 34 years old when she and her husband decided they wanted to have a child. The decision was prompted when her doctor told her, "'Maybe' never turns into 'no,' and it only gets harder as you get older." Bam.

Hirsch found out she was pregnant in the middle of Hurricane Irene, and she chronicles the stormy emotions of pregnancy, from elation, to shock, to sheer terror at the prospect of what having a child will do to her life.

Like all women, Hirsch wears many hats — in her case, the hats include artist, business owner and wife; how will she wear the motherhood hat without sacrificing other parts of her identity that are so important to her? Once her daughter is born, she is overcome with love, and documents the disorienting rush of new motherhood, while showing us how she slowly re-inhabits the other parts of her life.

Motherhood does change her, but it doesn't limit her.

  • “Was amazing to hear my exact thoughts put into words and comforting to know others feel the same way I do.”

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  • “From the first pages I felt strongly connected with the author.”

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  • “Hirsch writes in a quick, fun, but thought-provoking way.”

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  • “Hirsch eloquently describes the connection of being an artist and becoming a mother; both are times when one gives birth in very different ways.”

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  • “Helped me validate my own maternal feelings.”

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